assalamualaikum & hello peeps

so yeah school will reopen less than 14 days which means holidays is coming to end.
and i'm trying to recall back what have i done on spending my holiday.
but then ... i dont do anything. i didnt revised back my form 4 syllabus , this is really bad.
i said , i aim to get 9A's for my SPM. but i have no effort on it. no effort to make it real.
i really need to make it reality not as a word. serious ah hm.
okay i promised to myself to study start next week. yeah go for it Aina! make it as reality because you can
in sha Allah :)

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tbh, i am tired of all this things.
tired of pretending tht i dont care but i really truly care.
im trying to care less.
but i just cannot.
ah just forget it not important anyway

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btw, congrats to all batch 98's! today is your RESULT DAY right? ha ha the nervous . i can imagined it
but the happiness only less for like erm 1 month? ha yeah i've felt it before
how i missed being form 3 students. that pressure of taking exam is not like form 4 & 5 students, its just too different! so cherish your happiness today because next year there will be no more 'happiness' like today.
congrats to those who managed to get straight A's especially 98's Wmians!

next year gonna be my year.. ha ha  i just cannot ready ugh. may the success be mine and ours, 97's :)
BECAUSE EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE OKAY ^^

bye for now, cherish your holiday before it ends :p
takecare lovelies xx

come back faster plis i really want to talk to you :(

assalamualaikum and hi

hmm i miss my schoolmate so the much. seriously ah haih.
but then i felt like i dont want to go to school. not today not tomorrow nor next year.
why? because i dont know either i can handle the problem i had today and solve it as soon as possible.
i dont know how many times i should say "eh nevermind / nah its okay / i'm okay / i'm used to it" and so on
the pain i had last month and until today.. i just cannot forget it. i just still cannot accept it.
am i that really bad? am i so cruel? AM I?
cause until now you still didnt even said your apologize yet. not even say hi to me or what.
weh i'm really tired of waiting. i'm tired of this kind of bull****
for now i'm still grateful that i have my true friends not only by near me but also the further one.
all i want to say now is, enough is enough, i just dont want to be in pain anymore. i dont want to and i will never will. i'm done and I'M TOTALLY DONE.

thanks for make things like usual like nothing happened before. a good actor, yes you are. THANKYOU SO MUCH xoxo

hi

pernah tak rasa jadi orang tak penting?
pernah tak rasa selalu kau je jaga perasaan orang tapi orang tak pernah jaga perasaan kau?
pernah tak rasa macam nak benci semua orang?
pernah tak rasa macam nak lari dari semua orang yang kau jaga perasaan dorang tu?
pernah tak rasa penat dengan semua tu?
pernah tak rasa?

hmmm .
mungkin korang tak pernah rasa semua tu.
mungkin korang tak pernah lalui semua tu.
mungkin korang tak pernah kena dengan orang yang paling kau sayang.
mungkin.

tapi apa yang aku nak cakap sekarang ni aku memang sakit.
sakit apa?
sakit hati. dalam. perit. pedih.
semua aku telan. sepahit mana pun aku tetap kena telan. sebab semua tu jadi dekat aku.
aku nak mintak tolong dekat siapa lagi kalau bukan diri aku sendiri yang cuba untuk tabahkan diri sendiri.
orang takkan pernah faham apa yang aku, korang sendiri rasa.
sebab aku ialah aku. kau ialah kau.
tapi aku manusia jugak. aku ada perasaan. sama dengan manusia lain.
tapi kenapa aku tengok kau macam tak pernah fikir perasaan aku eh?
kenapa kau tak pernah jaga perasaan aku?
sedangkan selama ni kau lah yang rapat dengan aku. mana aku pergi, ada kau. tapi sekarang apa dah jadi?
salah aku ke penyebab kerenggangan ni terjadi?
aku rasa bukan aku je salah. tapi kau fikir kepala kau je. kepala aku kau tak pernah fikir.
ye, aku salah semua. kau puas?

takpelah. manusia kan.
takde sorang pun yang perfect. then semua nak blame each other. lumrah kehidupan lah tu.
apa-apa pun yang terjadi sekarang aku bersyukur aku masih ada kawan-kawan yang support aku.
aku still ada kawan yang memang kawan aku.
aku still ada pendorong untuk aku tetap tabah.
aku still ada mereka sebagai kawan aku. KAWAN BAIK aku atau lebih tepat SAHABAT :)
terima kasih, sahabat-sahabatku yang dimaksudkan kerana korang berjaya buat aku senyum kembali.
terima kasih jadi sahabat aku sehingga hari ini. terima kasih, semoga kita jadi sahabat sampai bila-bila.
in shaa Allah :')

mungkin apa yang terjadi hari ni ada hikmahnya.
aku dapat tahu mana satu kawan aku.
mana satu kawan yang ada dengan aku setiap masa.
terima kasih.
apa apa pun alasan kau lepasni, kau simpan jelah ye sebab aku taknak dan tak hingin pun nak tahu.
biar lah yang lepas tetap menjadi yang lepas sebab kau takkan tahu betapa sakit dan perihnya hati aku.
semoga kau sentiasa berbahagia dengan hidup kau sekarang.
lepasni kita tengok siapa cari siapa. lets just follow the flow k

"La Tahzan, Innallahama'ana" :)

people comes and go so dont ever cried for someone who left you cause there will be someone who will come to your life and cheer you up more than the people who left you 

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